Monday, January 3, 2011

New Years Resolution

Ok, so earlier I was talking about some New Year Resolutions. And I keep thinking of things I can do...BEING A BETTER MOMMY----I want to make sure that I put more time for my kids. I  know a lot of you are thinking, time? I am home 24/7 with them. Yes. But they are only little for a little while. Hunter is already 5 and going to school this year. Time has passed so fast. I want to play with them more, learn new activities. Be more active with them. Listen to them more. Read to them more. Understand them more. More is never enough. I want to make sure that I am there for them as much as I can be. Cadence is my big little princess. I think she really needs a sister and hope that we can give that to her someday. She is really looking foward to it. And man is she smart. Thought I think all of my kids are. Logan is growing. He is a very active little boy but he is shy with people he does not know. When his nana and papaw come over it takes a while for him to open up to them. Though I dont think he has fully opened up to them. In time i believe he will though. I love my kids so much and I could never imagine my life without them. We do want to have another one but have also talked about if we were unable to have another one then to adopt one. Just talking about it though. There are so many kids out there here in the  us that do not have a home. That need a loving home. My kids are my world. And Greg, man  he has been such a amazing daddy. I never knew how much that love of a father was till I see him with our children. Its so amazing how much someone could love someone. I am so lucky to have him part of my life. I cant believe I married the most wonderful man ever. I want to be a better wife for him. I know I am good wife now. I want to make sure I make him happy. He is my one true love. And I am looking foward to spending the rest of my life with him.
MY FAITH-----Really I do not know where to start on this. I have a amazing church group. The love that is in the house of God. Is truely amazing. I know that sometimes I struggle with following him. I think it is cause I am scared. Seems like every time we start going to church, bad things happen. And i know its the devil. But gosh, enough is enough. There has been things that has tested my faith. But if it was not for the Lord, I would have nothing, be nothing. Faith can move mountains. And God will NEVER put to  much on me that I cant handle. On December 26th 2010 I was baptised. I am going to make sure I do my best to walk with him to follow him. To put him first in my life. I want to trust  him more. Because I am his child.  I am going to try to make sure that I do his will. And live like it. I know that everyone makes mistakes. Everyone sins. i am going to try my best to be the best. I dont want to judge people, or hate people, Its time to live the way that I should. The way my family should. Though I know it will be tough and i know that there will be times that I fail. But I have a great support group. And that is a amazing feeling...
GET HEALTHIER AKA LOOSE WEIGHT----Ok, I struggle with this one. On so many levels. I want to loose weight. I want to be more healthier. But it so so hard. lol. I was going to the Y and doing kickboxing. In which I really did enjoy it. But right now till hopefully next month I have 1 vehicle. So it has been hard for me to continue that. I really wish I could do more. I wish that there was more people I can work out with. It is so hard to try to loose weight and not have the support on it. Or the know how. I love food. Dont get me wrong. Who doesn't. But I really wish I could have someone pushing me. Or if I had more stuff to do than just staying at home with the kids on a daily basis. lol. When they eat I want to eat, cause it is there. Not that I want my kids to hurry up and grow up. I dont. I just need to become more involved in stuff so it keeps up going. Instead of staying here at home. Every day. Sometimes it gets to me. Staying here every day, all day.. Day in and day out. I really dont like it. Though I feel safe here. I want to be able to go and involve myself. I really hope Greg gets his truck fixed next month. I am so scared that we are going to put a lot of money in it like we did about 4 months ago and then it start on fire and break..again... We have only had 1 vehicle that is working. And been without the other one for almost 2 yrs...lol. I cant do it too much longer. So like I said as far as weight. If any one  has any ideas please let me know I am more than open on suggestions. I have thought about going walking out here but I am scared to do that by myself. There are dogs around here I dont trust. And it is kind of hard to carry a gun while i am trying to walk and run..lol. (I could see that now.lol) I want to loose weight for me and my family. I want to do this. Its just so hard. I really hope I can do it this  year. I really hate every years saying i want to loose weight but then it does not happen. lol. So hopefully I can get some help and do it this year. I have faith. I can do all things through him who gives me streangth Philippians 4:13.......

3 comments:

  1. Holly, I think it is so awesome you were baptized!! I'm glad I found your blog on here, I've enjoyed reading it so far. I was reading about your love for your children and how you love being home with them and I wondered if you have thought about homeschooling them? We homeschool our four and I love it. I can't even imagine sending them to school. If you have any questions about it, just hollar at me. As for losing weight, I know there are some ladies at church that are wanting to exercise and start eating healthier, you could probably buddy up with some of them. Talk to ya more later,
    blessings, Rashel

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  2. Thank you Rashel it is a amazing feeling. I will def thing about homeschooling. Iam just scared if I dont know something then i would not be able to teach them..lol. another thing I am worried about is the interaction with other kids. I want to make sure that they have that. I thought about homeschooling just kind of scared. not the smartest cookie in the box..lol

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  3. Those are common concerns when somebody thinks about homeschooling, you arent' alone there. I will talk to you more about it at church. For now, pray about it, pray about it with your husband and then pray some more :-) There are solutions to both of your concerns, so don't let those stop you from considering it. Talk to ya later, Rashel

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